He eyes that spray bottle. "I'm not 'torn up' about him," he insists, then holds up a hand to stop that potential weapon. "It's more complicated than that."
He stares away from her, watching his spiders in their terrarium. "I took him over fully in the future. Dragged him through his own nightmares, time and time again. His worst memories on repeat while I controlled his body. At first, I simply wanted that back, but - then I liked being in his head. I told you that it was like a web - each of you are strings in it. When one of them snaps or breaks, I can feel it."
"It makes me feel - " He pauses, trying to put it into words that make sense. "Grounded? Being alone in my head for so long when I knew that I could do more, that I should do more, was hard."
“So,” she mutters, rubbing her head a little with her free hand. “You weren’t alone when you had him. Not a friend, but — probably fairly fucking close for someone such as yourself.”
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"Stop fucking shutting down!"
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"What - why did you do that?"
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She wants the whole admission from him. She doesn't level the spray bottle at his face, but her finger's on the trigger.
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Well. That isn't completely true. It's a lot like her and Swearengen. He'd hurt her over and over again, but still she'd come crawling back to him.
Sometimes it was nice not to have to think for yourself.
"You liked what about it exactly?"
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He keeps his eyes on the spiders. "Now it's only you and Dorian."
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She sits on the edge of Henry's bed.
"You're lonely."
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She glances at him, worrying her lower lip a little.
"Fine, so you're not lonely." She doesn't believe it. "But you miss him all the same."
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