The desire to use it. Those muscles, so well practiced, that satisfaction, so well known. There's other ways to get what you want but... they don't come as easily, as naturally.
[ A sigh. ]
I'm sorry I wasn't there. I... in truth, I wanted to believe you. It made it easier for me. But I also wanted to- I wanted to trust you? And I do- I do trust you. I-
I hope you know what I mean.
[ A sigh out. ]
I assume that Trixie is all right at this point? She's... healed, I mean?
I know what you mean. You could trust me. Then the Admiral sent me home and brought me back and I was angry and alone.
I'm better now.
[There's a long hesitation.]
I don't want to get rid of the powers I have. They're a part of me. But I am getting used to not using them. Asking questions instead of taking the answers.
Excellent! Well, hopefully that will take care of at least one leg of your remaining journey: any number of inmates have had to figure out a future that they genuinely look forward to, so it sounds as if I've been able to do something to help you get out of there. Now... tell me all about how you've been since I left, hmm?
Please tell me Dorian hasn't gotten you into any more trouble?
Zack! Goodness, I'll have to check in with him. I've already talked to Trixie; I'll be transporting her son and his significant other once I have a moment. I only dealt with Kikimora a little and I'll admit my association with Arthur's John was... limited.
And how are you adjusting to that? Have you started learning how to cook at all?
Jacobi has been helping me to fit a small kitchenette into part of the boat. Slowly but surely, it's becoming a bit more of a home and less a tour vessel.
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Date: 2023-08-15 01:47 am (UTC)[ He'll have his guilt trip later. For right now, as far as he knows he only has today. Thus- ]
Talk to me?
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Date: 2023-08-15 01:50 am (UTC)I came back and all of the creatures that I contr- no. The creatures who were me - they came. Harmed people. Killed them.
I hurt Trixie.
I asked to be human again.
[He lets out a long breath.]
I have all of my powers back and I'm not - using them like I was.
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Date: 2023-08-15 01:53 am (UTC)[ Quiet. Knowing. ]
The desire to use it. Those muscles, so well practiced, that satisfaction, so well known. There's other ways to get what you want but... they don't come as easily, as naturally.
[ A sigh. ]
I'm sorry I wasn't there. I... in truth, I wanted to believe you. It made it easier for me. But I also wanted to- I wanted to trust you? And I do- I do trust you. I-
I hope you know what I mean.
[ A sigh out. ]
I assume that Trixie is all right at this point? She's... healed, I mean?
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Date: 2023-08-15 01:56 am (UTC)I know what you mean. You could trust me. Then the Admiral sent me home and brought me back and I was angry and alone.
I'm better now.
[There's a long hesitation.]
I don't want to get rid of the powers I have. They're a part of me. But I am getting used to not using them. Asking questions instead of taking the answers.
Trixie is giving me her deal.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:03 am (UTC)...I can't say I don't understand that deal.
[ A sigh. ]
Do you know where you're going when you graduate? That sort of wish feels very-
Well, it feels very much like you'll be done sooner rather than later, at least to my senses.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:07 am (UTC)I cannot go home and I don't want to. I don't want to be in one place.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:10 am (UTC)...I'll need to check with Tim, of course. But, um...
I don't suppose you'd like to come with me? W-w-with the understanding that if you change your mind, I can drop you off wherever you like, of course.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:13 am (UTC)[He laughs, a little surprised.]
I should offer my apologies if we ever meet again. But - I'd like that.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:14 am (UTC)Please tell me Dorian hasn't gotten you into any more trouble?
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:16 am (UTC)I have a new room now. He taught me how to make drinks for a party I was planning after I moved in.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:18 am (UTC)...one of these days I'm going to convince him that being anti-social is an entirely valid life choice and not part of graduating.
How did the party go, anyway?
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:24 am (UTC)It was stalled. The Barge happened and I haven't had a chance to gather my friends.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:31 am (UTC)Friends? With an 's'?
[ That gets a bright laugh. ]
Excellent!
...I maintain that being an introvert is still entirely valid, but a few friends is still very good, yes.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:34 am (UTC)It's far too many.
[He makes jokes now, too.]
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:37 am (UTC)Anyone I'd know?
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:43 am (UTC)Still! A very impressive number.
And technically more than fit on one hand.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:53 am (UTC)I am human, for the most part.
I have to eat again.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:55 am (UTC)Jacobi has been helping me to fit a small kitchenette into part of the boat. Slowly but surely, it's becoming a bit more of a home and less a tour vessel.
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Date: 2023-08-15 10:54 am (UTC)Is that sufficient?
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